We met for the first time at the Embassy theater to watch the first star trek remake.

She wore a blue jean skirt with a white top and I remember she just talked and talked and talked.

I was a bit nervous. We had talked online for two years before ever meeting and I remember feeling so relieved how comfortable she felt around me.

She used to make fun of me for how I instigated the first kiss.
I walked her to her truck and right before she left I said "what.... no kiss"?
.... so cheesy.

... can't remember anything she talked about but on our second date we walked around downtown for four hours. I felt like we were both trying to get lost together.

Third date was dinner and I remember saying goodnight to her again but that time she had a look on her face that I have never seen before.
I can't explain it other than I felt like she was holding back something.
She was holding back while all of her guards were down...

Fourth date was the beach.
At one point we napped together on the beach and when I woke up, I noticed she had moved to my other side.
I pretended to be startled when I made it apparent that I woke up.
I think I wanted her to feel like it would have surprised me to see her not there ...
I really wanted to connect with her more and more.

On the fifth date she sat on my lap in my office after dinner...we just talked and kissed and kissed and talked. I told her that I loved her and that I think she's absolutely perfect.

It was at that moment that she said... "well... almost perfect".
I asked her what she meant and she said..."I have cystic fibrosis".

On our sixth date we laid in the back of her truck looking up at the stars. She feel asleep and that was the first time I could hear the crackling in her lungs.
When she woke up, I told her that I loved her and that no matter what happens ... I would rather spend every chance I get with her than ever missing one minute.

God how I wish I had stayed strong enough.