Vent Here , about anything

[wannabe07]

oh and p.s.~ my word of the day is FUCK :2eyesbleed:

[trailerparktrash]

I hate it when three channels are playing music but they all have ads at the same time. :x That makes me mad. :x

[skindeep_curiosity]

I hate when someone tells you they can't do something for you for this specific reason, but then they end up doing it for someone else anyway. Thanks for lying, dipshit!

[Lux]

Above is true.

I feel forgotten. I feel like people hate me, but I couldn't say why. I feel disgustingly overweight, even though I am probably not. My close friend has cervical cancer and is very ill, but I'm afraid to go and see her. Things are falling apart. 

[Sheilamadrie]

[quote author=Lux link=topic=17550.msg1106440#msg1106440 date=1228540549]
Above is true.

I feel forgotten. I feel like people hate me, but I couldn't say why. I feel disgustingly overweight, even though I am probably not. My close friend has cervical cancer and is very ill, but I'm afraid to go and see her. Things are falling apart. 
[/quote]

Please don't take this the wrong way...but go see your friend...that way you can focus on someone else's issues instead of your own..I find when I'm there for someone else my shit that really isn't relevant fades away...at least for a moment...

think outside of your box...

Ps even if you were overweight who cares? be happy with you. unless your doctor tells you your weights an issue...anyone else who has an opinion about it can fuck off...and who cares what the random asshole thinks about you? Sounds like you need to learn to appreciate yourself more...that way you won't even notice if you really are forgotten.... The most important opinion about you...is the reflection in the mirror...because when it's all said and done..you won't make the world happy.. but atleast you'll know you tried your damnest to make yourself happy..and if you succeed....well then you know you didn't fail..... just sayin.

[IvannaTrailer]

My life is so sucky right now. My daughter is sick and there is nothing I can do. She hasnt been like this in a couple years. Nobody fucking gets it. I dont know if i can handle a fucking hospital stay if it comes to that, i really just dont know if i can do it. My son is out of control. I think he hates me and i dont know why. He is four. He threw a shoe at my face today and told me he hated me because i wouldnt let him hit his little sister. His little sister is also out of control, she is a 2 year old anarchist I think. The eleven year old with health and mental issues is the only one being good and its because she is too sick to be bad. Nothing is right in my world.  Oh and my friends ffuciing suck. Every time we make fucking plans they ditch me to have sex with random losers they met on fagged. com... errr i mean tagged. its fucking gay either way. whatever though.

[Resident_Queer]

I had a relatively good day  :-P

I'm very tilred  :sleep:

and a co-worker from my job calls and texts me everyday. she always wants to hang out. maybe im just a bitch but im rather used to my solitary existence.

[Lux]

[quote author=Demented Doll link=topic=17550.msg1106449#msg1106449 date=1228541098]
Please don't take this the wrong way...but go see your friend...that way you can focus on someone else's issues instead of your own..I find when I'm there for someone else my shit that really isn't relevant fades away...at least for a moment...

think outside of your box...

Ps even if you were overweight who cares? be happy with you. unless your doctor tells you your weights an issue...anyone else who has an opinion about it can fuck off...and who cares what the random asshole thinks about you? Sounds like you need to learn to appreciate yourself more...that way you won't even notice if you really are forgotten.... The most important opinion about you...is the reflection in the mirror...because when it's all said and done..you won't make the world happy.. but atleast you'll know you tried your damnest to make yourself happy..and if you succeed....well then you know you didn't fail..... just sayin.
[/quote]

That actually puts things into perspective and thanks for that. It's cowardly of me to be afraid of seeing her like that because it really hurts me. On the other hand, I'm afraid that...what if she doesn't make it? And I wasn't there for her? I don't know how I could live with that. But you're right--I need to go and see her and help her through this as best as I can. Regarding the weight stuff, logically I know I'm not overweight in the least, I just have a ridiculously low self esteem and I'm not sure how I got that way. I know I have to toughen up, and you're right, the only person whose happiness matters is mine. I just gotta get out of this negative headspace. Thanks for the reply, I REALLY appreciate it, especially now of all times.

[Sheilamadrie]

[quote author=Lux link=topic=17550.msg1106459#msg1106459 date=1228541719]
That actually puts things into perspective and thanks for that. It's cowardly of me to be afraid of seeing her like that because it really hurts me. On the other hand, I'm afraid that...what if she doesn't make it? And I wasn't there for her? I don't know how I could live with that. But you're right--I need to go and see her and help her through this as best as I can. Regarding the weight stuff, logically I know I'm not overweight in the least, I just have a ridiculously low self esteem and I'm not sure how I got that way. I know I have to toughen up, and you're right, the only person whose happiness matters is mine. I just gotta get out of this negative headspace. Thanks for the reply, I REALLY appreciate it, especially now of all times.
[/quote]

Your welcome....:)  My best friend has serious issues with people being sick..when I was on seizure medication (i didn't have seizures until I was on the medication, long story) I went from being dizzy to having full blown grand mal seizures over night...she would freak out and let me seize then come back when I was done..She just couldn't handle it. She later said it freaked her out watching me sick and knowing there wasn't anything she could do to make it better for me...

but truth is..when I was in the hospital...everytime she came and saw me..and it ment the world to me..especially because I knew how much it freaked her out...  There's nothing worse then being stuck to a bunch of machines and not knowing what's going to happen next....and being by yourself... Promise. You'll help her..and it will help you...

I use to down on myself all the time...then I realized other are going to have one of two reactions to me...Either they'll love me or hate me...and the latter don't matter...And why would you want to be the biggest hater in your life towards yourself? Sometimes the only person who can love us..is ourselves. With out going into masturbation fantasies....just give yourself some lovin..... 

Sorry I'm a dork. I don't think anyone woman should have low self esteem...We have a vagina..automatically that makes us better than most of the population out there anyway....

[Lux]

[quote author=Demented Doll link=topic=17550.msg1106464#msg1106464 date=1228542243]
Your welcome....:)  My best friend has serious issues with people being sick..when I was on seizure medication (i didn't have seizures until I was on the medication, long story) I went from being dizzy to having full blown grand mal seizures over night...she would freak out and let me seize then come back when I was done..She just couldn't handle it. She later said it freaked her out watching me sick and knowing there wasn't anything she could do to make it better for me...

but truth is..when I was in the hospital...everytime she came and saw me..and it ment the world to me..especially because I knew how much it freaked her out...  There's nothing worse then being stuck to a bunch of machines and not knowing what's going to happen next....and being by yourself... Promise. You'll help her..and it will help you...

I use to down on myself all the time...then I realized other are going to have one of two reactions to me...Either they'll love me or hate me...and the latter don't matter...And why would you want to be the biggest hater in your life towards yourself? Sometimes the only person who can love us..is ourselves. With out going into masturbation fantasies....just give yourself some lovin.....   

Sorry I'm a dork. I don't think anyone woman should have low self esteem...We have a vagina..automatically that makes us better than most of the population out there anyway....
[/quote]

Not a dork at ALL! On the contrary. You've really shed light on how my friend must feel right now, being all by herself in the hospital. It makes me honestly sick to think about her there alone, but I don't know how I'll handle seeing her. Walking in the room and just seeing her like that. But what kind of friend would I be if I just let her suffer by herself?  I'm so glad that you had your friend there for you during all of that. I want to do that for her too, and I will.

And back to the confidence stuff, I know, I know. I shouldn't even be thinking about trying to please EVERYONE. It's a stupid waste of time and waste of self. I just have to find myself because I didn't use to be like this. Hahaha, I know I'm supposed to be all brooding and emo but I just HAD to laugh at that (bolded area)!! Haha. Thanks for putting me in a better mood. 

[ichy]

im getting tired of these 16 hour days 6 days a week. I get up for school at 6 o'clock. that's when my day starts. school starts at 8 and gets out at three. at three, i go to work until ten. every day except for monday and tuesday. if i have homework, i get home from work and do it.. and i have to wind down, so i usually get to bed at about 1. it didn't bother me at all until about recently... i've had to start picking up this other clerks stuff, because 7 months ago she dislocated her shoulder and she has selective hurts. she sits at the fucking register, and i do my stuff, like coolers, trash, bagging ice, cleaning bathrooms and then i have to cover for her and do her shit like slicing meat, making fucking pizzas, making burgers, filling ketchup, wiping counters, unloading the truck.. but when she wants a sandwich, she can get the meat out with no problem. she says that using the meat slicer hurts her arm. oh oh she can also go outside to smoke at her convenience. when she goes outside its usually when im in the middle of doing shit and she's like watch the register for me, i'm going outside. her doctor told her she needed to quit working, and she was like no no it's too close to christmas.. so i look for her to quit at the beginning of the year. apparently they have someone lined up already.. so maybe it'll be someone who knows what the fuck they're doing, is young(ish), doesn't have fake cancer, doesn't do drugs, and does what they're actually supposed to do and doesn't fuck up my work schedule. I make around 160 a week, and i found out that a girl i go to school with waitresses three nights a week and makes what i make. and this little fucker told me that my job isn't that hard.. i dont do anything but sit behind a register. gah

[wheresthebeef]

I love this thread!! It's like the dear so and so condensed!!

[the color nine]

I found my stepson's prescription bottle, had it filled and there was a note from the doctor that he wanted to talk.  Called and found out that his mother hasn't taken him to the doctor in three years!  First of all why is this doctor still prescribing meds for someone he hasn't seen in three friggin years?  I mean especially kids, they grow and change rapidly.  I can't wait to hear this story.....

[neenerneener]

i'm really tired of people not being able to take a joke.  especially when its glaringly obvious that i'm joking.  :|

[FemmeFatality]

I'm sick of reading about balls in every thread.  Make a balls thread plz.

[neenerneener]

there is a balls thread.  it is currently locked. 

[BJBS97]

I hope I make it to DBT therapy on December 29th.
If I need it so bad, why don't they have room for me?

[Tarren]

[quote author=the color nine link=topic=17550.msg1106760#msg1106760 date=1228580025]
I found my stepson's prescription bottle, had it filled and there was a note from the doctor that he wanted to talk.  Called and found out that his mother hasn't taken him to the doctor in three years!  First of all why is this doctor still prescribing meds for someone he hasn't seen in three friggin years?  I mean especially kids, they grow and change rapidly.  I can't wait to hear this story.....
[/quote]

Wow TC9. I work in a GP surgery and folks have to have a med review every so often. 3 years is a hell of a loooooong time, especially for a kid. No wonder you're pissed at the doctor.

Vent away. 

[the color nine]

[quote author=Tarren link=topic=17550.msg1106826#msg1106826 date=1228582881]
Wow TC9. I work in a GP surgery and folks have to have a med review every so often. 3 years is a hell of a loooooong time, especially for a kid. No wonder you're pissed at the doctor.

Vent away. 
[/quote]

I know, right?  What the hell.

[Karalicious]

[quote author=deeply shaded link=topic=17550.msg1105877#msg1105877 date=1228508370]
How does that happen? I have a solution, though. Burn that shit. Then all you have to do is inventory it and after you've said "WTF did I ever buy that for" about 195485 times your insurance company hands you a check and you get to start over fresh. Then just don't buy that shit again.

I'm trying really hard not to buy that shit again. I had a 28-year accumulation.

My venting involves the lack of safe venting areas here. Is there one in the premium section? I don't want some random person I hate coming upon my rants and saying, "Holy shit, that's me!" and knowing I said it.

[size=5pt]random person=my boss I totally want to say bad shit about my boss. And her boss. And her boss's boss. Infinity all the way to the top. [/size]
[/quote] are you allowed to just keep the money that the shit is worth and not buy it again? i totally considered burning down my apartment for the exact reasons you cited, even before your house burned :lol:

[FemmeFatality]

[quote author=Karalicious link=topic=17550.msg1106844#msg1106844 date=1228583420]
are you allowed to just keep the money that the shit is worth and not buy it again? i totally considered burning down my apartment for the exact reasons you cited, even before your house burned :lol:
[/quote]

You do know that the insurance company has arson investigators?  :lol:

[Tarren]

[quote author=Karalicious link=topic=17550.msg1106844#msg1106844 date=1228583420]
are you allowed to just keep the money that the shit is worth and not buy it again? i totally considered burning down my apartment for the exact reasons you cited, even before your house burned :lol:
[/quote]



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ach9Byn2ND4

[Mrs. O]

[quote author=Tarren link=topic=17550.msg1106848#msg1106848 date=1228583488]


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ach9Byn2ND4
[/quote]

One of my favorite songs ever.

+1

[Karalicious]

[quote author=FemmeFatality link=topic=17550.msg1106847#msg1106847 date=1228583482]
You do know that the insurance company has arson investigators?  :lol:
[/quote] um duh. which is exactly why the apartment is still standing :lol:

[Tarren]

[quote author=Mrs. O link=topic=17550.msg1106850#msg1106850 date=1228583579]
One of my favorite songs ever.

+1
[/quote]

One of my fave groups ever. Seen 'em plenty. <3 Keith Flint.  :2smiley: