AT just 17 years old, Psalm Isadora broke free from the fundamentalist Christian cult she had been born into and embarked on a wild drug and sex-fuelled journey.

Isadora was escaping not only the group's oppressive lifestyle but also the father who had molested her from the age of five.

Her quest to heal her "sexual wound" led her on a perilous drug and sex-fuelled journey from the clubs and bars of Hollywood to the ashrams of southern India.

"I spent my 20s in a hot mess of sex and drugs," Isadora told a wellness seminar in the US last year, just months before her suicide.

"I used anything I could to escape the pain but I still kept my secret, I still protected my abuser. I was still afraid of being judged, I was afraid if I told people, no one would love me because I was too broken and wounded.

"It would feel like the red-hots, like I couldn't crawl out of my own skin and the only escape would be maybe drinking because then I was numb and then I felt free. Or doing drugs because then I would feel free.

"Or sex. I had sex with men, I had sex with women, I had sex with Hollywood. I'm not mad at it except it wasn't empowered (sex). Sex was like my heroin. Some people who have had sexual abuse (become) hyposexual — they shut down their sexuality.