Friday, August 22, 2008
tell me why.....
Current mood: drained
Category: Life
life.... it can be interesting or boring. most people choose to make their life interesting, it helps to pass the time. whether you get into good things or bad things, you fill your time with something so you wont lose your sanity. apparently my cousin laura chose to do drugs in her spare time, but didn't get to live a long happy produtcive life while doing them because last night, she killed herself. she was only 19 years old. at such a young age, what kinda of problems could cause such a thing? the first chapter in her life hadn't even begun, and she selfishly took that away from everyone who loved her. i've known her since she was 2 years old, and we always spent tons of time together. of course lately we havent because as we all know you get older and you start getting into your own things and you get busy with work and etc. which makes me feel even more guilty..... what if i had put effort into spending more time around her and her family?..... what could i have done to prevent this? i just wish i could hug her and let her know i care about her so much, and just maybe that might be enough to save her life. im not blaming myself, and i know i shouldn't be looking in retrospect, im just.... wondering. and it also makes me wonder.... who is next to go? thanks a bunch to everyone for the love and support, just as her unfortunate death will remain with me for the rest of my days, so will your compassion and sympathy. i love you all. peace.....
michael randazzo
p.s. thanks to laura, i will be spending the rest of my days, fighting a battle in the war against drugs. God have mercy on whoever gave her those pills.