3 months ago .. February 15th, 2009 .. My good friend, Matthew Ghinger, took his life (or someone else did - There is a shitty detective working his case, and from what I am aware of, they don't know who did it). My main question is: WHY?! I wonder that TO THIS DAY. Why did he/someone else HANG him?! WHY?! I wish I could ask him! Matt was SO full of life and always so happy. He was my fiance's best friend. This world is not the same without him here. To this day, I have not met someone who can make me laugh until it hurts. I wish he was here to see my baby be born in December. Oh, he would have loved to see that. He'd say to Tony, "Well at least SOMEONE'S gettin' laid!!" I think about him EVERY SINGLE DAY. I miss him EVERY SINGLE DAY. I'd give ANYTHING to bring him back. If there was a Magik spell, I'd bring him back to life & out of that dang urn. Sometimes I wish he was buried so I could leave him flowers. Matt, don't forget about Tony and I. We miss you every single day. You were one of the greatest friends we could ever ask for!!