From a blog about Eric -

It's so surreal. I just keep thinking he'll walk through the front door, bouncy as always, and say, "Oh the wound wasn't that serious, they patched me up just fine." But I know better. The coroner has called and asked to use pieces of his heart to save three children's lives, and his corneas too. The police were there to tell me, yes he was dead. But I knew from the moment I found him. I didn't want to admit it because I was still hoping that just maybe my mind was playing tricks on me.... but that's not the case and I knew it the moment I saw all that blood and I saw part of his brain on that floor. I can't get it out of my head. The image of it all makes me sick but even with my eyes wide open I can see it.