Don't get me wrong...there was a period of time in my life when I did do hurtful, fucked up things to other people because I acted on impulses that I had without thinking twice. I'm not perfect, and I do have days where I'm a complete bitch for no good reason. It really boiled down to one question...is this the kind of person I want to be? I was severely unhappy with who I was and decided that it was time to cut the bullshit and get some control over myself. Sometimes it's a struggle, and sometimes I feel like making the wrong decision is easier than making the right one in the moment. I am grateful that the "intense anger" portion of BPD doesn't affect me at all...I don't have a temper and I rarely get angry. But the rest of the symptoms (in case anyone doesn't know what BPD looks like: http://psychcentral.com/disorders/bo...rder-symptoms/) are a daily struggle. My anti-depressants help to even out my general mood, but it's still a problem. My mood could be different every day, every hour, it just depends.
Anyway, I didn't mean to totally derail this thread, I just resent being lumped in with criminals. I may be a lot of things, and my brain DEFINITELY doesn't work the way a normal person's brain does, but I would never bring death to another person.