Ahhh, so I'm pretty much ruining my children also. Got it.
I really do wish my kids would believe in God... It just seems like it would make life easier. I've often thought about how I will feel when someone super close to me passes away, since I can't make myself believe they are with God or whatever. I see these moms whose kids have passed away, and they're like, "She's in Jesus's arms," etc. and it must be such a comfort to truly believe that. Do they TRULY believe that, though? Or deep down do they know it's really unlikely? I just don't see how these people can seem to have zero doubt whatsoever. How do you not doubt something at all? When a doctor gives me medicine, I halfway think it's designed to kill me or make me sicker - I can't even trust the intentions or motivations of a guy standing in front of me, talking to me in an actual voice. How can people just trust that there is a big man in the sky doling out punishments and such and that a stupid, contradictory book is the actual Word of a Higher Power? It boggles my mind.