So, I just thought I'd let everyone know exactly what brought me here. Well, my dad died May 29, 2007. His friends told me about this site and that I could talk to people who understand and don't just nod they're head (or i guess just nod they're keyboard? ha) because they really have no idea what your talking about. Honestly, I feel exactly like I did the day my dad died. The feeling hasn't changed much. It sucks. I hate it. Well, I suppose things have somewhat changed. I'm getting a little help at school and after asking god for more help I found out that my mom asked my sister to find me a counselor. And I USED TO BE somewhat suicidal. But that was over a year ago, before I learned that suicide is very selfish. (my cousin attempted) and I learned how bad it feels to have someone else do that to you. So I have changed, and I used to hate people. I used to blame everything bad on the world. None of it was natural. It was always someone's fault. At one point I blamed god. I blamed god and said that he stole my dad from me. A friend of mine taught me that it's man or disease who takes the ones we love, and god simply carries them to heaven. So I've changed a lot through this time of loss. But I still miss my dad the same way I've always missed him! :2sad: Well, I'll end this here for now. REPLY ! :D Give me advice, thoughts, or if YOU need someone to talk to leave something or IM me. :]