guys i need prayers. most of you know my dad has cancer, and even though its been stage four for two years, he was always pretty much able to function on his own, going to work, driving, blah blah. well last week he went in for a new chemo treatment, and everything was fine for about 3 days. on Wednesday he slept most of the day, and i didn't want to bother him by waking him up because he can get pretty mean, so i let him sleep. well when he woke up, he got out of bed and i hear this loud crash, so i run upstairs and he had fallen into my sisters bath tub. cut himself up really bad, blood everywhere. its now Monday and he still cant walk, he refuses to use a wheelchair but i finally got him to try a walker.
his sleep patterns are so random which means mine are too, because i have to stay up with him or else he will try to get up and end up falling again. i can not keep him in his fucking bed. another thing i cant get him to do is take the right amount of painkillers because he sneaks behind my back and triples his dosage of morphine. hes so out of it that he doesn't know what hes doing, but he throws a fit and ends up hurting himself if i don't give him more.
to top off my stress, my husband decides that now would be a good time for him to do a show out of town :roll:
so i guess im just going to have to cross my fingers that when i have to leave the house to take my sister to school and back, my dad doesn't fall and kill himself.
i need strength. :|