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    60 Days In Star Nate Burrell Dead At 33 from Suicide By Gunshot

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    https://www.tmz.com/2020/11/01/nate-...nshot-suicide/

    Nate Burrell, one of the stars of A&E's docuseries, "60 Days In," has taken his own life.

    Nate's sister, Chelsey Walker, tells TMZ, Nate committed suicide Saturday night. She says her brother shot and killed himself out in public in downtown Allegan, Michigan.

    Nate posted a long suicide note on Facebook, saying, "This isn't an admission of guilt. I'm just tired, I've been through so much in my life, the pain of my situation now hurts more than I ever imagined. I can't keep going on."

    Nate had just turned 33 years old. He had a child on the way with his wife, but it looks like he and his wife split. He wrote, "I can only imagine how bad this would all turn out, all of the legal crap that would ensue after this with custody and everything else. You win! You have promised for weeks, you will ruin my life and I had no idea who I was messing with. You are right, I didn't know who I was messing with."

    The show followed Nate and 8 other volunteers who entered jail for 2 months under assumed identities to put a spotlight on the problems behind bars.

    Nate's sister said, "Nathan loved his country, loved his family and was a very caring guy. He was just in a bad place. He was very proud of being on '60 Days In,' and he really cherished his time on that show."

    Burrell served in the military as a Marine from 2006 to 2010. He was in the infantry and served 2 tours in Iraq. Nate went on to receive his associate degree in criminal justice and law enforcement in 2014. He was a Fish and Wildlife Officer in Michigan.

    Nate was 33.

    RIP

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    https://heavy.com/entertainment/nate...-suicide-note/

    In the suicide note, Nate Burrell made a number of allegations against his wife. He wrote:

    This isn’t an admission of guilt. I’m just tired, I’ve been through so much in my life, the pain of my situation now hurts more than I ever imagined. I can’t keep going on. I’m sorry Jordan I let you down. I have dreamed of the day I get to raise my son, but that was taken away from me. I can only imagine how bad this would all turn out, all of the legal crap that would ensue after this with custody and everything else. You win! You have promised for weeks, you will ruin my life and I had no idea who I was messing with. You are right, I didn’t know who I was messing with. You told me you wished I still wanted to kill myself a few weeks ago, and that has sat in my heart since. This isn’t a post to bash you but instead to lift you up.

    I want to apologize to my family and friends for failing you. I know alot of you will think you could have changed my mind I ensure you, you wouldn’t. This isn’t a spontaneous thing. I had so much support through this and I am beyond grateful for everyone and everything you all have done. SO THANK YOU! But we all have our day, our time to go, most feel like we shouldn’t decide that but I’m here to tell you I’ve made that decision and as hard as it was I am happy with my decision. I’m done fighting the demons of my past, I’m done fighting the demons of today, and the demons of tomorrow. I hope my son gets to meet my friends and family and they can be apart of raising him. I pray that my family doesn’t resent ANYONE for my decisions. I know Jordan can be the best mom in the world and she will do an amazing job, I just need to remove myself from this picture to create a less complicated aspect of her raising him. I’ve said during every fight and argument to my family that Jordan is an amazing woman and even though people try to show me something else I see the real you Jordan. I’ve literally had some of the best times of my life with you Jordan you were truly my best friend.

    The note then continued on to mention various other people in his life, including his mother. “Tamara MOM you have the most beautiful soul ever, thank you for protecting me as a child. Thank you for guiding me as a young adult. I am forever indebted for your many sacrifices you have made for all of your children and even the ones you have raised who aren’t yours,” he wrote. “I love you so much please be as much as a part of my sons life as you can. I know you and Jordan haven’t seen eye to eye on everything and you both need to raise above that hate and be there for him. I LOVE YOU MOM!”

    He also wrote about his sister, his grandparents, childhood memories, his uncle, various friends, and even a childhood babysitter in the deeply personal message. We are choosing not to reprint all of those comments.

    The suicide note concluded,

    I finally get to join some of the friends that no longer walk this dark path that we have all fought for years. I’d also like to mention the behavioral health side of our nation needs to be revamped and funded in a way its never seen. Our military and their families need it. I checked myself into the hospital for wanting to commit suicide and from the beginning I felt like a criminal going to jail. Stripped of my dignity and identity and personal property. I needed my family and friends during this time and you took that away. Not being able to communicate put me in such a darker hole than I was in originally that was so hard on me mentally. I would have told you anything to get me out of that place even if it meant I was okay when I wasn’t. You didn’t help me you held me prisoner so I couldn’t hurt myself? You need a better system America. This is the reason veterans and our military are killing themselves at such a high rate. They arent getting the treatment they need when they reach out for help they go to a place like I went. And as I told the doctors there I would kill myself before coming back to a place like this. You should be ashamed of yourselves. All I wanted was help, I sought you and you treated me like an animal.

    For those who want to celebrate this day as a victory, enjoy it. I know alot of people hate me and that’s just what its going to be. I won’t change your minds. I hope you understand I’m sorry for hurting anyone in my life. And I hope you find it in your hearts to forgive me, I wasn’t a horrible person, I may have said or have done a few things to make you feel that way but I tried living my life as good as I could. I slipped up I created voids where voids didn’t need to be. None of us are perfect and none of us should cast judgment onto another person without knowing the complete story. I hope you all know I love you, every last one of you! I’m truly sorry from the bottom of my heart.

    For those who are mourning know I’m in such a better place. I’m no longer fighting the battles that have been causing so much pain in my mind and life. Waking up feeling worthless, lost, confused, and tired/exhausted. I know you all have told me thats not who I am and I’m talented and have a good head on my shoulders, I appreciate you, but it doesn’t help how I feel. I’m so lost and really can’t see any light at the end of the tunnel. Since I’ve been out of the Marines I struggle with alot of aspects of reality, I struggle with sleep, feeling comfortable around people, going out in gatherings, focusing, memory issues. We have been told we are weak if we seek medical help in the military. It becomes a pride thing because you are afraid to be viewed as weak. I take my last breaths I hope you know I think about every single person that has came into my life. I tried my best! Please if you guys have a celebration of life or service for me, let everyone who wants to be there be there. Don’t stop Jordan or anyone else from being there if they want to. I ask from the bottom of my heart that you honor this. It isn’t her fault or anyone else’s fault that I made this decision. I pray that God puts peace on all of your hearts and minds. This day should be a day of everyone coming together and comforting everyone. I love you all.

    Jordan you are going to do better raising our son without me than with me. I don’t hate you I’m not upset or mad, I’m sad, why did it have to turn out like this?! You’re such a beautiful person and can be the most loving person ever. Please move forward with your life with respecting yourself, loving yourself, you aren’t impossible to love, all of those things you and I have talked about are not you! You are such a fun person to be around, just keep your head up. I’m not there physically but I hope to always be there in the back of your mind, giving you the advice you need, when you are down. I hope to motivate you in the way I would when you would call me and ask me to help you. I told you regardless of our marital status I would love you and I hope you know that I still love you. My best day I’ve experienced so far was our wedding day. Our song is literally the perfect representation of that day. I just wonder if things would have went differently how would we have ended up. Just so you know you have been my favorite memory. If you don’t get my letters that I wrote to our son and you I’m sorry. I tried giving you closure. I feel like life would never have felt complete without meeting you, I wish our relationship would have went a different way but it didn’t. I’m a better person for knowing you. I LOVE YOU Heartbeat ❤❤��.

    The note continued,

    Let our lives not be defined by our mistakes but instead our hearts.

    A few bible verses for you to remember during this time:

    Now I lay me down to sleep,
    I pray the Lord my Soul to keep[;]
    If I should die before I ‘wake,
    I pray the Lord my Soul to take.

    For if we live, we live to the Lord, and if we die, we die to the Lord. So then, whether we live or whether we die, we are the Lord’s.

    Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.

    For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.
    *** The full post is on his FB page and it links to his friends and family's FB pages. ***
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    I only watched the first season of this show. I don't remember him so I am guessing he was on a different season?


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    yes i said i will leave it under you storage he said cuddle with me i said shut up it over??? what am i doing wrong??

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    Quote Originally Posted by Nic B View Post
    I only watched the first season of this show. I don't remember him so I am guessing he was on a different season?
    Yeah I only watched the first season too. He wasn't on it.

    That suicide note heart breaking.
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    This one hurts. He was freaking amazing. He was the only person that was asked and agreed to stay another 60 days. I really like watching him.

    He was in season 3 & 4
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    So I've been following this on Facebook. Apparently, a week or so before his death, his wife filed charges against him for rape. He was facing 5 first degree felony charges over this. The family says that the wife is a manipulative liar, who made up the charges in order to punish him (I'm not sure for what, exactly), and that she had promised him she would ruin his life. People are posting screenshots of conversations, and all kinds of chaos is going on in the comments under his suicide note/last post. If you notice, the first line of his final post is, "This is not an admission of guilt". He also states in the post that his wife told him she wished he would kill himself, and he essentially blames her for his suicide, but then says he is trying to "lift her up", and tells his friends and family not to blame her, she's a great person, and she'll be a great mom to their unborn child.

    He says he is doing it to remove himself from the equation, because she'll be able to parent better without him than with him, and how he doesn't want to go through a custody battle, etc. He tells his wife that "she won", and says that she was right, he didn't know who he was dealing with.

    It feels very manipulative to me, and I feel like, if I were innocent, I would word it a little more strongly than "this is not an admission of guilt", but I don't know. The family says she seduced him the night before the rape charges were filed, they had rough sex, and then she went to the police the following night. A friend of hers says that she saw her afterwards, and she was bruised and scratched, etc. His friends and family are all basically saying they want her to face charges for his death, and that they don't want her to parent the child, and that she is an evil person. It's pretty intense

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    Also, he shot himself in public, outside of a Pizza Hut or something, in a parking lot, with some of his friends watching (they went to find him, after reading his post). I read that the Pizza Hut is located near his wife's apartment, like maybe across from it or something. The police were there, attempting to resolve the situation, and they supposedly (according to friends and family) called the wife to come talk to him, and she refused
    But they would not allow his friend who was at the scene to talk to him. It seems crazy to me that the police would ask his pregnant estranged wife, who just accused him of rape, to show up at the scene, where the guy is holding a gun and threatening to shoot himself. The family says the she said she couldn't come because she was at a bachelorette party and was the designated driver. Her friends deny this.

    Also, he had recently been hospitalized for being suicidal. There were screenshots posted of her conversation with someone in which she was saying she loved him, she knew he was sick, but that she had told him she couldn't be with him unless he got help.

    In another screenshot, of a conversation between Nate and his wife, she tells him that she hopes he gets into a car accident and dies. Sounds like a fun relationship overall. It has been said that Nate suffered from PTSD, and depression. It has also been said that the wife suffers from Bipolar Disorder.

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    Quote Originally Posted by stephanie_says View Post
    So I've been following this on Facebook. Apparently, a week or so before his death, his wife filed charges against him for rape. He was facing 5 first degree felony charges over this. The family says that the wife is a manipulative liar, who made up the charges in order to punish him (I'm not sure for what, exactly), and that she had promised him she would ruin his life. People are posting screenshots of conversations, and all kinds of chaos is going on in the comments under his suicide note/last post. If you notice, the first line of his final post is, "This is not an admission of guilt". He also states in the post that his wife told him she wished he would kill himself, and he essentially blames her for his suicide, but then says he is trying to "lift her up", and tells his friends and family not to blame her, she's a great person, and she'll be a great mom to their unborn child.

    He says he is doing it to remove himself from the equation, because she'll be able to parent better without him than with him, and how he doesn't want to go through a custody battle, etc. He tells his wife that "she won", and says that she was right, he didn't know who he was dealing with.

    It feels very manipulative to me, and I feel like, if I were innocent, I would word it a little more strongly than "this is not an admission of guilt", but I don't know. The family says she seduced him the night before the rape charges were filed, they had rough sex, and then she went to the police the following night. A friend of hers says that she saw her afterwards, and she was bruised and scratched, etc. His friends and family are all basically saying they want her to face charges for his death, and that they don't want her to parent the child, and that she is an evil person. It's pretty intense
    Thats interesting about the rape accusation. I wonder if he thought he was going to go to jail for it.

    I also wondered why he went from "I didnt know who I was dealing with" to "shes going to be a great mom". That doesnt make sense. Obviously he wasnt in his right mind, but its still questionable.

    I wondered if he had PTSD, and he did

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    Quote Originally Posted by Angiebla View Post
    Thats interesting about the rape accusation. I wonder if he thought he was going to go to jail for it.

    I also wondered why he went from "I didnt know who I was dealing with" to "shes going to be a great mom". That doesnt make sense. Obviously he wasnt in his right mind, but its still questionable.

    I wondered if he had PTSD, and he did
    Yeah, based on everything I have seen, I can completely imagine it being either scenario. I hate to make guesses as to whether or not a woman is telling the truth about having been raped and/or abused, it just feels gross, but it is still a fact that this does happen, even if that is not the majority of cases. Maybe this is one of them, and he was just too exhausted, by life and what he was already dealing with, to be able to deal with the possibility of prison, etc., over something he didn't do.

    He did seem like a great guy on the show, but that's just a snippet of someone's life, and as was mentioned, he did have PTSD, and had apparently been struggling with suicidal ideation for a while. There was also a text screenshot posted that was supposedly from him to his wife (I can't remember if I mentioned this one), in which he told her that he prayed every night for her to have a miscarriage.

    So the relationship appears to have been mutually emotionally abusive, and probably occasionally physically abusive, completely outside of the rape charges. There was also apparently a lot of jealousy in the relationship, with her deleting all of the women from his social media accounts, very high school kind of shit. I'm not sure whether that was one sided or not. They were only married for about a year, I believe, and apparently got married after only have dated for a relatively short time period.

    Since rape is about power and control, and since some men still seem to struggle with the concept of marital rape, and since he was dealing with mental illness, along with involved in a relationship that was dysfunctional at best, abusive at worst, it doesn't seem like a huge leap into rape territory.

    There were texts where she was saying that he had choked her 5 different times, and that he had almost killed her. She said that the look in his eyes had terrified her, and he told her to stop. This was all in response to his having said something about never jeopardizing her life. She told him that she was just really sore, and he apologized to her twice. The family says that those messages were regarding sessions of rough sex, and there is a text that is cut off in the screenshot, right above where he says he never jeopardized her life, and the last couple of words are "your vagina". Not sure what to make of that, but his friends and family all seem to feel very confident in their position. To the point where they want to do whatever it takes to clear his name and take her child from her.

    They also included a screenshot from the day before the rape charges were made, where she thanks him for "giving momma that good dick", is begging him to stay the night, and says that her "pussy is throbbing". All of the screenshots that seem to favor Nate's side are apparently ones that he sent to friends and family members, in order to prove his own innocence, and what he was dealing with.

    The family believes that she planned this out in advance, that she told someone that she wanted to get pregnant by him because he makes good money in construction, and would pay good child support. I can't imagine anyone having a kid in order to get child support. I mean, not unless the father is a millionaire or something, maybe. My ex made pretty decent money, and I got $1250 a month for two kids. That literally only covered daycare costs. It certainly didn't provide any sort of luxury lifestyle for me, lol. She's pretty, and she doesn't appear to be dirt poor, so it's hard for me to imagine that being a single mother would be her best bet towards living a comfortable lifestyle.

    I've heard crazier stories, though, so who knows? The things that people are capable of rarely shock me anymore, so like I said, I can see either side being true. I really hope that she wasn't lying, though, because that would be make everything so much more horrible and tragic.

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    This is supposedly the night before the rape charges were filed.

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    This is after his suicide. His friends think that it says something very negative about her, but that's because they believe that the rape charges are fake and this is all her fault. I feel like it's a normal and appropriate reaction to his suicide and the note he left. Anger is one of the phases of grief.

    Of course, a narcissist or sociopath would also be likely to respond in this manner.

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    What.The.Fuck. I have no idea what to think now. I like to believe women dont lie about stuff like that...but wow.

    And praying every day that she has a miscarriage? That sounds like he doesnt want to be a father.

    Jesus they must have had a toxic ass relationship. I still dont know whose "side" Im on.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Angiebla View Post
    What.The.Fuck. I have no idea what to think now. I like to believe women dont lie about stuff like that...but wow.

    And praying every day that she has a miscarriage? That sounds like he doesnt want to be a father.

    Jesus they must have had a toxic ass relationship. I still dont know whose "side" Im on.
    Didn't some girl lie and say a whole group of jocks raped her and ruined their lives? I found the case I'm talking about.
    https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Duke_lacrosse_case

    Sounds like he didn't want to be a father with her as the mother.

    I wonder if being on "60 Days In" helped contribute in some way to his suicide?!
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    Wow, didn't expect all of this.
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    Here's an article from the Daily Mail. I know, not necessarily the most reputable source, but it does have some details about how things went down, including, I believe, the police report.

    https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/art...ce-public.html

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    So sad. I really liked this guy. Hell, the inmates liked him. He alway's appeared to have control of his emotions. He was engaged to someone else during the taping. Which was a couple of years ago. I believe from what I have read rough sex was consensual at times between them. Along with the text between them I'm not convinced of his guilt. Obviously this was not a match made in heaven. Rumors** of all sorts. I pray for the baby boy. This was sad to hear. He seemed to have a lot going for him.

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