Feb 25, 2006 7:29 AM
T, this feels ridiculous, leaving you a myspace comment. I don't know where to start, or when to end. I wish that there was something that Hannah or I could have said or done on wednesday to make you realize just how much we all love you, and how much we'll miss you now you're gone. I feel like I should have payed just a bit more attention, given you a little more time, said something more, done something differently, so you wouldn't feel like you needed to leave us like this.
I'm still hanging on to the belief that you didn't know the full consiquences of your actions, that you just wanted the nightmare of those few days to end, to fall asleep and wake up again without those tears. Even as I type this, I'm second doubting that. To be perfectly honest, I'm really pissed at you for leaving us like this. I'll never understand exactly why you did it, or why you had to leave all of us here, without a goodbye. None of us will ever be the same for it. Yeah, you screwed up on monday, everyone does at one point or another, but if you had just given it another day, another week, and it would have gotten better. But there's no opportunity to prove that now, or even say one last goodbye. We love you, and we'll miss you. I hope your happier now, wherever you are.