There is no "trick" for some people. I have been in treatment ever since my first attempt and 15 years later I grow more hopeless by the day. I want desperately to get better, have tried everything available and have fought relentlessly to find help in a system designed against helping the seriously mentally ill. I take the meds, see the doctors, spent months in lock down in mental wards, had ECT. Nothing has helped. Yet I have a clear mind, I'm with it enough to see the healthcare system failing myself and so many others. I should be able to choose a peaceful, dignified death, but instead must plan in secrecy without help or support from others, hoping that the next time will be the last time.