[quote author=tgyta link=topic=6444.msg858575#msg858575 date=1211120297]
Yea, I had a lot of people say "anything u need, just ask" and what not. Surprisingly most of them were genuine about it even. At least on my side. Joe's side's kind of been a whole other story. The thing I've found out when something tragic happens, it's a perfect time to fight. And it's not so much fighting about joe as it is rrevisiting old family fueds. For crying out loud, I don't know if I've mentioned this anywhere before, but do you know how Joe's funeral went? About 30 minutes into it the only ones in the room were me, MY family and friends..and a few of joe's old friends. As for his family..they were outside calling the cops on each other and physically blocking people from getting in just becuz they didn't like the person. Suddenly it's all "well I don't like you and joe would take my side so you're not allowed to come in" I had the funeral director coming up to me every 10 minutes asking who I wanted to kick out. It got to the point where I almost left his funeral. The last thing I need to be doin while I'm sitting 5 feet from his casket is bounce his gaddamn funeral.
And since then nothing's improved really. Everyone's pitting everyone against each other and blaming one another for everything and threatening to take people to court. Total...fucking...nightmare. Oh, and apparently joe's death is a weapon to use against one another during petty arguments. I'm really loving that. It started getting to the point where they were doing it in front of me and my kids. My kids don't need to be around that shit, I don't care if they're only 1 and 2. I don't need to be around that shit. They're big thing is that I only knew him for 3 years...not even three years even...more like 2 1/2ish...so I'm not allowed to be sensitive about his death. Such bullshit. I finally had to sideline them and informed them of this in an email becuz I was literally having panic attacks trying to deal with the stress they putting on me constantly. And THEN they called my mom and tried to get HER against me! OMFG.
Anyway, I feel bad cutting them out right now, but I'm only doing it until I can handle their bullshit. Everyone I know tells me to just cut them out for good. I'm hoping it doesn't come to that but each day it looks less and less likely like they're going to come around and stop making everything a fight.
anyway, wow...holy rant. oops. It's been on my mind a little...well a lot actually. I'm trying to be a good person about this situation but I'm also trying to stay sane and take care of my kids. I'm not one to put myself first always, but it's becoming necassary I think. I guess I just don't know what else to do about the situation. :-(
[/quote]
What you are going through is COMPLETLY normal... especially when you have so many people working against you. You are handeling it so well I can't believe it. If I were you, I would be so emotional that I would cut them out of my life for good, but I see that you are thinking of your children and that gives you 100% respect in my book. Everyone handles things differently. There are good times and bad, but you are doing an amazing job. Your kids are so lucky to have a role model like you!