http://mydeathspace.com/article/2014...k_her_own_life
This is the first thread I started here so I hope I'm doing it right and it's in the right place.
This story, like all the others is so tragic. I came across this article that mentions a suicide message she left on YouTube, the transcript of her video brought tears to my eyes and pain in my heart. This poor girl seemed tormented. Madalyn's mother's FB posts are inspiring. The last posts on Madalyn's FB page were about her friend, Brianna. According to another article, Brianna shot herself after an argument with her mother. I don't know if Brianna has her own thread.
Longer article at link, the comments below the article are powerful.
http://www.buzzfeed.com/tracyclayton...a-mess#3ywxs19
Yates? final video has since been removed from YouTube, but here is a transcript:
I know it?s not OK for me to be doing this, but I just can?t do this anymore. It feels like I?m being swallowed whole into myself. It physically hurts. Sometimes it hurts so bad that I throw up, and sometimes I just get panic attacks. I know this is selfish. You know, the doctor prescribed Prozac for depression and anxiety, but those are just fancy words for ?selfish.? I know that I?m going to hurt everyone who loves me, and I really do love them too. But I?ve been like this for so long, and there?s still a chance that the worst day might still be coming. And I just don?t see how this is a bad idea because it?s like someone?s on the 12th floor, and the room behind them is on fire. And they?re standing on the window ledge and they have a choice whether or not to jump and get away from the fire or just stay and die a slow, excruciating death. It feels like that.
But I don?t want anyone to feel like it was their fault. This was my decision, not yours. I?m the one who messed up, not you. There?s nothing, literally nothing that you could have done; you?ve all tried so hard to help me. And I tried too. I guess it?s like I don?t mean to be over dramatic, but it?s like there?s a demon inside of me [inaudible].
You can?t help me. You?ve tried. And I?m sorry. I really don?t mean to hurt anyone. Remember that I?m doing you a favor. Remember how bad of a person I really am. I say awful things. Even if I don?t mean them, I say them. You don?t even want to know the things that I think; I am not a good person. I?m doing literally the whole world a favor. But I love you, and I?m sorry. And I really, really love you.