yeah.... it makes me feel like i'm asking for welfare from god.

i think the times i've prayed and got an 'answer', like for example, i need a job and a few days later i see something that makes me think, 'hey! i should look into doing that!' are just the same as the times i've not prayed and had similar experiences.

it seems prayer is just a way to focus your mind and get it thinking about things in another way.