I'm not sure what to say right now... Lizz died one month ago on Sunday... I really thought I was coming to terms with it, I really thought I was coming to a point of acceptance... Damn it!!!!
I haven't signed on since last week... first I read what Cematary Sniffer wrote and my heart aches for her and her daughter... this disease touches so many... from now on I will pray for her daughter at every meeting I go to...
Also to Morbidlylovely, I am very sorry for your loss, alcohol addiction is so often overlooked as a lesser problem when in reality it is one of the most dangerous and deadly addictions. I also agree with your feelings about MDS, I always have.
Finally, that LJ entry was completely devestating to me. The more time that goes by the more I see how much Lizz kept to herself. I see now how much she really was suffering and struggling, I only wish she had been more comfortable with the people that really cared for her and loved her to let us in on how hard it really was for her. I can't help but think I could have done more or I should have seen how close she really was to using. I just wish I could make sense of such a senseless thing.