Dumb things that scare you/creep you out

[emmamalakian]

[quote author=Ron_NYC link=topic=23917.msg1549040#msg1549040 date=1267301285]
What do you do though? How did this start?
It must be really fucking inconvenient. I mean, how can you never be alone? How would that even work? :?
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It is not easy.
I had a pretty bad childhood and I think thats why I dont like being alone.

Well Im 20 and Iv been with my partner for 3 years now.
And before him I was in a 1 year relationship and before him a 2 year relationship.
I also have friends that know I dont like being alone, so when my partner is away they come stay over.
:2embarrassed:

[Ron_NYC]

[quote author=emmamalakian link=topic=23917.msg1549061#msg1549061 date=1267301729]
It is not easy.
I had a pretty bad childhood and I think thats why I dont like being alone.

Well Im 20 and Iv been with my partner for 3 years now.
And before him I was in a 1 year relationship and before him a 2 year relationship.
I also have friends that know I dont like being alone, so when my partner is away they come stay over.
:2embarrassed:
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Before him, you were a child. For crying out loud. :lol:
Those aren't relationships!

That sucks though. You should look into trying to do something about that. It's not a healthy/convenient way to live. For serious.

[Nocturnity]

[quote author=GothaBella link=topic=23917.msg1549053#msg1549053 date=1267301506]



Also, sometimes I would fucking PAY to be alone.  
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This.  OH Lawd this.  What I wouldn't give for just two hours of no one in the damn house.

[Bella]

[quote author=Nocturnity link=topic=23917.msg1549086#msg1549086 date=1267302340]
This.  OH Lawd this.  What I wouldn't give for just two hours of no one in the damn house.
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There is nothing like it in the world.

[Nocturnity]

[quote author=GothaBella link=topic=23917.msg1549090#msg1549090 date=1267302464]



There is nothing like it in the world.
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Except of course for an empty house AND a bottle of wine to yourself.

[ZoMyGoddess!]

myspace angles... lol or perspective...




but really he's....








not what i expected.

[emmamalakian]

[quote author=Ron_NYC link=topic=23917.msg1549076#msg1549076 date=1267302154]
Before him, you were a child. For crying out loud. :lol:
Those aren't relationships!

That sucks though. You should look into trying to do something about that. It's not a healthy/convenient way to live. For serious.
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Well my first long term relationship was with my best friend we didnt really do anything that friends wouldnt so I stand by what you say on that one.
Yeah Iv been to a doctor and professional about it and it didnt really help.
Oh well.

Its strange I like quiet and silence but not to be alone.
:roll:

[Bella]

[quote author=Nocturnity link=topic=23917.msg1549094#msg1549094 date=1267302534]
Except of course for an empty house AND a bottle of wine to yourself.
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I have been sober for a month. Probably the first time in my life. At least since I was 11.
That's 30 years for me.  :2huh:

[Ron_NYC]

[quote author=emmamalakian link=topic=23917.msg1549099#msg1549099 date=1267302640]
Well my first long term relationship was with my best friend we didnt really do anything that friends wouldnt so I stand by what you say on that one.
Yeah Iv been to a doctor and professional about it and it didnt really help.
Oh well.

Its strange I like quiet and silence but not to be alone.
:roll:
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Dude, you're not even street legal yet! What are you, 20? :lol:
You can't act like you've tried everything at this point. Hell, you haven't had enough time to try anything when you look at it.

Don't give up now, you're just getting started. Trust me, you can't go through life needing people around 24/7. It's going to be a difficult time for you. And it's not like therapists push a magic button and fix everything. It's going to be a long and difficult process, but it'll be worth it. The alternative is ugly, I have seen it. Trust me. When you want just ANYONE to be around you, it's not gonna end well.

[Nocturnity]

[quote author=GothaBella link=topic=23917.msg1549107#msg1549107 date=1267302817]

I have been sober for a month. Probably the first time in my life. At least since I was 11.
That's 30 years for me.  :2huh:
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Oh shit!!  Oops.  Uhhh.....Ok we will settle with the house all to one's self.  And bubble baths without someone beating down the door. 

[Bella]

[quote author=Nocturnity link=topic=23917.msg1549119#msg1549119 date=1267303035]
Oh shit!!  Oops.  Uhhh.....Ok we will settle with the house all to one's self.  And bubble baths without someone beating down the door.  
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It's kind of neat, really. The only addiction I can't cure is the MDS one.
And I swear, I can't even pee without someone banging on the door at least four times. Forget taking a shower.


[quote author=Ron_NYC link=topic=23917.msg1549118#msg1549118 date=1267303015]
Dude, you're not even street legal yet! What are you, 20? :lol:
You can't act like you've tried everything at this point. Hell, you haven't had enough time to try anything when you look at it.

Don't give up now, you're just getting started. Trust me, you can't go through life needing people around 24/7. It's going to be a difficult time for you. And it's not like therapists push a magic button and fix everything. It's going to be a long and difficult process, but it'll be worth it. The alternative is ugly, I have seen it. Trust me. When you want just ANYONE to be around you, it's not gonna end well.
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You should be charging for this.  

[emmamalakian]

[quote author=Ron_NYC link=topic=23917.msg1549118#msg1549118 date=1267303015]
Dude, you're not even street legal yet! What are you, 20? :lol:
You can't act like you've tried everything at this point. Hell, you haven't had enough time to try anything when you look at it.

Don't give up now, you're just getting started. Trust me, you can't go through life needing people around 24/7. It's going to be a difficult time for you. And it's not like therapists push a magic button and fix everything. It's going to be a long and difficult process, but it'll be worth it. The alternative is ugly, I have seen it. Trust me. When you want just ANYONE to be around you, it's not gonna end well.
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Iv been in therapy since I was 11.
Im 21 this year so Iv been at it along time.
And I did the just wanting anyone around you part.
My ex (before my 3 year relationship that Im still in) beat me and cheated on me for a year before I felt I had the support to dump him.
Im doing alot better than I was.
I dont want to never be alone because when I do get 5 min alone I feel like my head can sort more things out than if Im around alot of people.
If that made sense  :|

[Ron_NYC]

[quote author=emmamalakian link=topic=23917.msg1549127#msg1549127 date=1267303327]
Iv been in therapy since I was 11.
Im 21 this year so Iv been at it along time.
And I did the just wanting anyone around you part.
My ex (before my 3 year relationship that Im still in) beat me and cheated on me for a year before I felt I had the support to dump him.
Im doing alot better than I was.
I dont want to never be alone because when I do get 5 min alone I feel like my head can sort more things out than if Im around alot of people.
If that made sense  :|
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Yea, this is gonna end well.

Is your MySpace page public?

[emmamalakian]

[quote author=Ron_NYC link=topic=23917.msg1549130#msg1549130 date=1267303386]
Yea, this is gonna end well.

Is your MySpace page public?
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Yeah I think so.
Iv never thought to check  :oops:

[Nocturnity]

[quote author=GothaBella link=topic=23917.msg1549126#msg1549126 date=1267303266]

It's kind of neat, really. The only addiction I can cure is the MDS one.
And I swear, I can't even pee without someone banging on the door at least four times. Forget taking a shower.


You should be charging for this.  
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Yep.  The never ending cop type knock followed by "Mommmmmmmm!!!  HEY!!"

"WHAT?!"

"Where's my ____________?"

Then you have to get out of the shower soaking wet and find it for them.

Wow...I really need to get my meds filled :lol:

[Ron_NYC]

[quote author=emmamalakian link=topic=23917.msg1549137#msg1549137 date=1267303520]
Yeah I think so.
Iv never thought to check  :oops:
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Wait...I just realized....you were in an abusive relationship as a teenager!??! WHERE ARE YOUR PARENTS!?

[bowieluva]

[quote author=Ron_NYC link=topic=23917.msg1549147#msg1549147 date=1267303843]
Wait...I just realized....you were in an abusive relationship as a teenager!??! WHERE ARE YOUR PARENTS!?
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Probably being shut out of her life because she was a teenager and on top of that concealing the abuse? Ron, you should have read more Sassy magazine when you were younger, they had tons of articles about this shit.

[angelaiscaustic]

[quote author=bowieluva link=topic=23917.msg1549151#msg1549151 date=1267303913]
Probably being shut out of her life because she was a teenager and on top of that concealing the abuse? Ron, you should have read more Sassy magazine when you were younger, they had tons of articles about this shit.
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Yeah, this.

[Bella]

[quote author=Nocturnity link=topic=23917.msg1549140#msg1549140 date=1267303610]
Yep.  The never ending cop type knock followed by "Mommmmmmmm!!!  HEY!!"

"WHAT?!"

"Where's my ____________?"

Then you have to get out of the shower soaking wet and find it for them.

Wow...I really need to get my meds filled :lol:
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Did I mention my youngest three are 11, 6 and 5?  I am too old for this shit. Seriously.

I hate the cop type knock, too. Last time I heard that, it was actually cops at the door.  :lol: Fuckers wouldn't go away.

[Ron_NYC]

[quote author=bowieluva link=topic=23917.msg1549151#msg1549151 date=1267303913]
Probably being shut out of her life because she was a teenager and on top of that concealing the abuse? Ron, you should have read more Sassy magazine when you were younger, they had tons of articles about this shit.
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Reading's for rich people.

No, seriously. This shit goes on? Man, you people had some fucked up childhoods. And I was the one spending the night in Spofford. :lol:

[emmamalakian]

[quote author=bowieluva link=topic=23917.msg1549151#msg1549151 date=1267303913]
Probably being shut out of her life because she was a teenager and on top of that concealing the abuse? Ron, you should have read more Sassy magazine when you were younger, they had tons of articles about this shit.
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Yes part of that is true.

Basicly from the age of 10 I helped my mum take care of my autistic little brother.
Then my mum got sick so I had to look after them both.
My brother cant talk or do anything like a "normal" child can.
So I never told my mum because she had enough going on.

Me being a carer for my brother I feel is one of the reasons I feel I need people around me.
1) Incase something happens to me then they can make sure he is safe.
2) Since my mums been sick she spent all her time on the net and not really talking to me.

I wasnt allowed to go out with friends I had to have them at my mums house.
And that was only for 1 hour a week.
So I started clinging onto the people that cared about me enough to see me.
Then I left home.

I was in that situation for 8 years.

My dad and mum broke up when I was a baby.
And hes always in different countrys working.

[wheresthebeef]

[quote author=Nocturnity link=topic=23917.msg1549140#msg1549140 date=1267303610]
Yep.  The never ending cop type knock followed by "Mommmmmmmm!!!  HEY!!"

"WHAT?!"

"Where's my ____________?"

Then you have to get out of the shower soaking wet and find it for them.

Wow...I really need to get my meds filled :lol:
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Omg Tommy's little girl knocks like a cop. Scares the shit out of me every time. I can't get her to stop.

[Ron_NYC]

[quote author=emmamalakian link=topic=23917.msg1549160#msg1549160 date=1267304268]
Yes part of that is true.

Basicly from the age of 10 I helped my mum take care of my autistic little brother.
Then my mum got sick so I had to look after them both.
My brother cant talk or do anything like a "normal" child can.
So I never told my mum because she had enough going on.

Me being a carer for my brother I feel is one of the reasons I feel I need people around me.
1) Incase something happens to me then they can make sure he is safe.
2) Since my mums been sick she spent all her time on the net and not really talking to me.

I wasnt allowed to go out with friends I had to have them at my mums house.
And that was only for 1 hour a week.
So I started clinging onto the people that cared about me enough to see me.
Then I left home.

I was in that situation for 8 years.

My dad and mum broke up when I was a baby.
And hes always in different countrys working.
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:2huh:
I'm sorry. Wow.

[ZoMyGoddess!]

[quote author=GothaBella link=topic=23917.msg1549156#msg1549156 date=1267304068]

I hate the cop type knock, too. Last time I heard that, it was actually cops at the door.  :lol: Fuckers wouldn't go away.
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yea when my car got hit, the cops knocked at my door at 1:30am and they knocked like they were raiding the place.  I jumped up and looked around like, "HIDE THE DRUGS!!!"
meanwhile, i dont do any drugs.  damn knock just freaks me out, i think its instinctual.

[emmamalakian]

[quote author=Ron_NYC link=topic=23917.msg1549176#msg1549176 date=1267304941]
:2huh:
I'm sorry. Wow.
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Its okay.
To be honest even though Im only 20 Iv lived as a adult since I was 10.
I never wanted to grow up so fast but no one else would help my mum and brother.
Alot of shit happens and I guess that just part of life but having people around takes my mind off how f**ked up my life has been.

On a lighter note,
Anyone else scared of lifts??  :lol: