I'm exhausted and I hate introductions and I'm confused, slightly, as to whether this is about food or introducing noobs, but it would feel incomplete to post anything without saying hello first. My name is Vaela, I'm 19, I live in Nashville, I have a consuming obsession with death (I'm on xanax for panic attacks that started after watching Eugene Armstrong's video). I have been obsessed with MDS for at least a couple of years although I just discovered the forums recently because I'm slightly dumb. I have been coming to terms with my own mortality and I have an intense fear of dying, but this forum has been helping my mental health. I punish myself by mourning for strangers, I'm obsessed with seeing the last signs of life on a dead person's myspace or facebook, and the only thing I have ever been more addicted to than MDS is World of Warcraft. My friends don't understand my obsession but I hope to become less crazy by participating here. You guys seem cool.